Can I have a little PEACE ?

As I sat in that house, breathing the same air as the two most gorgeous girls I know, I began to think. Some girls believe that since they are attractive, they are empowered and that they have every right in the world to be better than any other "less beautiful" girl. As I thought the thought over, which I did for extended periods of time, I realized I had the most unusual expression plastered across my face. I had realized I was not one to be classified as "beautiful," "gorgeous," or even at least, "attractive."

As my blue eyes scanned for someones name to pop up on my phone's bright screen that could talk to me out of my final decision, they didn't seem to fall upon anyone who would take any extra notice to help me out. I sent one to my best friend of seven years, a new fellow I had just met, my boyfriend at the moment, and a guy I used to like.

My heart was quick to jump into my throat when my A Rocket to the Moon ringtone blasted from my little Palm Pixi. I read the screen over carefully before pressing my talk button. "Hello?" was the only thing I could mutter, it was replied with a "What in God's name are you talking about? You're GORGEOUS!" Of course, I grinned and the butterflies quickly flew into my stomach. I let some breathing time flow between us before I really got to anything. The time we spent was cut short by a few impatient pleas and after the goodbyes were said, it didn't take long for my phone to give out its tell-tale sign of a text message.

I'll never forget what that boy said to me to make me change my mind, and I am so thankful to him for saving my life. Up until that night, I thought I was ugly, disgusting, and rather unpleasant to be with. He changed my mind and convinced me that any boy would be lucky to have me. I disagree slightly, but I would never tell him my thoughts to his face. It made such an impact on my life. I love him for that.

Now, if you may be wondering why I'm writing this, it's to show you that you're gorgeous. No matter what anyone says. Everyone has something special about them. I promise that you have something to be proud of. Always remember, your beautiful inside and out.


Love Your Body Peace Treaty--
JaiLynn Nelson.

There I am, where are you?

What a question.

Today I was asked why I always talk about love. It seemed to inspire me when I thought of a response. To tell you the truth, I have no idea why I always talk of love. I guess it's because since I am a girl, I tend to think of things what girls would love to hear from any guy.

What I posted today seemed to have upset the poor fellow.

From Facebook, "ily,i love u, and i luv u is not the same thing as I Love You. geez, :/"
Here is the whole conversation:

Douche Bag: we want to know y u always talk about love

4:01pm Me: because, it's a n everyday thought that goes through every girls head

4:02pm Douche Bag: yea tht is y a guy does not stay with the same girl for over 2 months

4:03pm Me: On the contrary, a lot of guys stay with girls. Most of the time, they aren't scared of a commitment.

4:03pm Douche Bag: notice u said most and affaird

4:04pm Me: Most of them yes, not all of them. We still have jackasses and players.

In place of his real name, we will use douche bag. I don't know where he was getting his information, but he was taught wrong. Most of the guys I know would kill for a committed relationship, but they can't find one.

To sum this up, I always talk about love because I am a romantic. I am an optimist. I am an extrovert. Most importantly, I am a girl.

Traveling.

As I lay in my uncle's basement, I've realized getting out of Tennessee was best for me.

I will be out of that retched state for two weeks. One week in St. Louis, Missouri. One week in Waldron, Arkansas. However, no matter how much I'm glad to be on vacation, I will get homesick. I'm going to miss my mom, dad, boyfriend, and especially my friends.

My cousins Amanda and Alex are actually more enjoyable that what I had originally expected. They are really funny, and actually have no problem with making me feel like home. Playing Overlord, Left 4 Dead 2, and Bioshock. I think the insiders we are creating will last for awhile.

My plans for the week happen to be going to the arch, going to see Eclipse, and going out to do a few other oddities.

I'm sorry for the late update, my loves.

I love you,<3
-JaiLynn Anita